Layers of Happiness (Episode 1)
Happiness has layers. And these layers began to unfold late May, 2012. I was thirty and marriage appeared to be one of the layers of happiness. I just finished from a Bible school where I had gone to train as a pastor. Though my heart was on fire for the Lord, there was a void in my life that only a godly woman can fill in.
As the void began to enlarge with each passing day, I began to search for a soulmate among the women in my church where I was the junior pastor. I prayed but I didn’t wait to hear from the Lord.
I was taken aback by the beauty of sister Ruth. She was calm and she appeared humble, too.
Somehow, the wall of happiness in my heart began to overflow with excitement and I began to dream dreams about her.
After one of the Sunday services, I called her and told her about the emotional chemistry I perceived between us. Interestingly, she accepted my proposal without much wooing and delay.
And the marriage date was set.
It was early November. And the trees had begun whispering with the passing wind that set the ground running for the beginning of the Harmattan season in December. As the trees whispered, my heart whispered too with happiness. I took her hand and with the pastor’s blessing of a happy married life, I walked down the aisle to the waiting car. It was my wedding day.
That night, I felt different butterflies, with different unique colours, on our window panes rejoicing with us on our new home. And perhaps too, the butterflies were tumbling through my stomach as happiness engulfed my being. I felt a heaven on earth that wedding night as I slept with my wife on our bed.
And the happiness remained.
Then happiness began to show me another of its layers. Now, the butterflies on our window panes after the wedding night had left. The natural flowers at the front door to the living room began to show traces of grey.
“You are infertile!” Ruth posited in a very terse voice after we had a sexual intercourse one night.
“what did you just say?” I asked pretending not to have heard her.
“I mean you cannot have children.” She sternly reechoed her initial words.
I was shocked at that her confrontation. And my happiness began to have another layer.
…to be continued.
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